Twenty five.

Twenty five.

Well that year went by quickly, right? Just yesterday it seemed like I posted the 25 by 25 list and hoped and dreamed and wished that the next year would be one of the fullest, best and most adventurous yet.

Safe to say it was.

It was the first time in years that I had challenged myself to take control. Figure out what was missing and stop moseying through life.

I traveled. All over. Serious travel bug. Nine new states. Montreal, Canada.

I wrote in new places and publications, and created a new blog.

I took acting classes. I started teaching myself to play the guitar.

Listened to new music from all over and read a hand full of books.

Ran a half marathon and found two new churches.

I was spontaneous. I simplified. I spent a lot of time with Ashley and got myself to best, healthiest place I’ve been mentally, physically and emotionally.

I invested myself where it mattered and when it mattered most; and I found myself cherishing every relationship I had a little deeper.

I took a gigantic deep breath, weighed all of the pros and cons, gave many a tearful hug and left North Carolina in the rearview mirror to go back to school; to move 15 hours away and to take on a new chapter without a second glance.

I swear I’m the happiest that I could imagine today. Big smile and all.

You know, there were things to be worried about when I moved. Would I make friends? Would I like the city? But in retrospect it’s funny to think that I thought about those things. But never actually worried about them. Lucky me, because I never needed to.

After a month in Boston I was able to spend my 25th birthday feeling so much love from far away and right in Boston. Cards and messages from friends and family around the South. And yet somehow was also surrounded by Boston friends and new roommates. It’s pretty incredible how much of a new life you can put together in such a short period of time.

God’s definitely been watching out for me.

25 is going to be pretty amazing. How do I know? Goodness, look at the last year of preparation. : )  If anything, I feel like 25 by 25 was the introduction and now we’re getting to the good part.

What comes post 25 by 25? Maybe this list I talked about a long time ago. Or maybe a break to focus on school and you’ll just get normal updates from me. Regardless, the blog isn’t going anywhere.

So, here’s to 25 more years of adventures and love and progress. You know, that’s really all I could ever dream or ask for.

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“25 by 25” after 25?

Sometimes I wonder what will happen after October 7th and I’ve either been successful…or less successful…at accomplishing my 25 by 25. What then?

Well, maybe something like this?

Has anyone seen “The Impossible List”? I’ve seen variations on other blogs, but Joel Runyon has created what I find the most interesting. I love that he says this:

The impossible list is NOT a bucket list. [Side bar, I hate when people think of my 25 by 25 as that. I know, I know–I’m being over sensitive.] Not too long ago, I used to settle for the possible things in life. The sure thing. It was “realistic”, “safe” and boring as hell. I decided I needed a challenge.

The impossible list is that challenge. This list of impossible things contains all the things I ever thought I couldn’t do because it was “impossible.” The sort of things that I assumed the cool guys on TV only ever got to do. The things I never thought that would be able to do.” – Joel Runyon

More or less, that’s exactly what 25 by 25 was about. It was about challenge and it was about accountability.

Joel’s Impossible List is categorized and some examples are:

Life

  • Make A Loan To Every Country Kiva Loans To [61/65]

Fitness

  • Run a Duathlon

Travel

  • Go Swimming in Every Ocean
    • Pacific
    • Atlantic
    • Indian
    • Arctic
    • Southern/Antarctic

Minimalism

  • Go without internet for a month

Adrenaline Rushes

  • Learn to Surf

Miscellaneous

  • Go to the airport and buy a ticket without knowing where I’m going.

Events To Attend

  • See The Northern Lights And Do A Time Lapse Film Of It

Festivals

  • Coachella

Renaissance (Wo)Man

    • Learn To Breakdance

Become Fluent In 4 Languages

    • English
    • Spanish
    • Mandarin
    • French
    • Italian
    • Esperanto

BizNass

  • Put $100,000 in the bank.

 

But the beauty of this list is that it’s all about you. You’re obviously not confined to the same buckets or goals that someone else has laid out.

I obviously still have work to do on the 25 by 25; but in the meantime it’s kind of nice to know that just because that timeframe is ending––constantly challenging myself and keeping it public for accountability doesn’t have to change : ).

What would your Impossible List have on it? I’m pretty sure it will be a fun time plotting this out. Anyone up for skydiving? (Shhh, don’t tell my orthopedist.)

2013, you’re halfway gone.

And with the end of June, we’re officially (months-wise) halfway through 2013. It’s pretty wild to take a tally of the first six months and see all of the adventures and stories I’ve collected this year.

From making my first travels out West to exploring Canada with Sarah.

Running. Running. And more running.

Wild new projects, clients and tasks with work.

Unexpected new friendships and relationships. Both their starts and their finishes.

Explorations with little brother. And big life moments crossed off the list. (high school graduations and half marathons.)

2013 has been, to date, as wide-eyed, open-armed and headfirst as I have wanted it to be. I have taken the chances that seemed appropriate. I have had a lot of faith. And I have felt as much alive as I have in a long time. So, this is what living is like?

But there are still six months left. And like with any client on an annual budget; halfway through you have to take stakes in––have we gotten where we hoped to at this point? Are we on track to finish and, at the minimum, meet objective?

January through June? Check. Satisfied.

June through December?

Well, according to the 25 by 25 there still needs to be a broadway show, some personal acting, some education, volunteering, learning about firearms, be published AND write a book proposal. And that’s just by October : ). Crazy remainder list, by the way.

2013 was admittedly going to be a year of change and growth; and looking back on the first six months I cannot believe how accurate my predictions have been.

The most immediate prediction list for the remainder of the year? How about just this third quarter?

– Swallow my pride and see a specialist about my leg. I need to get back to running as soon as humanly possible without forever cursing myself with an injury. (You guys, I had a dream I was running last night.)

– Luke Bryan, Miranda Lambert, Keith Urban, Dierks Bentley and Kenny Chesney concerts with Brooke through the rest of the summer.

– Family time over the 4th of July holiday.

– Prepping a little brother for college.

– Planning a trip to Atlanta for time with best friends (including the Braves, duh).

– Getting creative with saving money. Let’s see how many dinner parties I can have instead of going out . . .

– Busting out some 25 by 25s, stat.

Next check in will practically be my 25th birthday. Don’t mind me while I go have a freak out over how quickly this year is passing.

Time flies when you’re having fun!

25 by 25: Learning the Guitar

This has been both an easy and challenging task.

Easy? I took piano for roughly five years and it came pretty naturally. So, I already understand chord structure and it’s not been an overwhelming thing to memorize finger patterns.

Challenging? Ow. Strings are different on the hands than ivory. Not to mention, I am one slow transitioner. All my songs kind of stutter right now. But I promise once I master one, I’ll post a video.

Regardless of the days or nights that I’ve spent blindly teaching myself and probably annoyed family members and neighbors–it is still so very relaxing. It’s completely been a solace for me while I’ve been sidelined from running. (Still, my leg. What the heck. I’ll save that continuing rant and torture for another day.) Luckily, because of all of the time strumming, I am getting an inkling better.

Something that I’m going to be near expert at soon? Stringing.

Oh, I’m apparently adept at having strings break. So now, after six months, I have strung my guitar no less than 3 times. Hopefully that decreases in the future too.

This is what peace looked like last night:

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Right now (don’t laugh) I was working on an easy song (hello repetitive chord structure) in “Highway Don’t Care.” Oh, yes. Tim McGraw’s new gem. I alternate in between some hymns and personal favorites, Christina Perri (however, her songs are a little more complex than I’ve graduated to yet).

My next one to tackle? I love this Mumford & Sons rendition of one of my favorite songs to sing at church. I haven’t posted many Sunday devotions lately. So, give this a listen. Even if you prefer more mainstream music perhaps you can appreciate Mumford & Sons take on a popular song. Love. I don’t think I’ll be taking on their guitar match any time soon, but perhaps in the spirit of learning I can find an easier tab to play.

In my latest reading: Barbara Walters’ Memoir.

Turns out that I have a little something in common with lady Barbara Walters:

“To my surprise I discovered I was, and am, as decisive as anyone can be. I knew precisely what should be left in and what should be taken out. Just like that. (I have always been a terrific editor, if I do say so myself–and I do say so myself.) But in private life I can barely make a decision. I second-guess everything from if I should wear the red or blue dress to where to go on vacation: Europe? South America? the Bahamas? Maybe I should just stay home. My daughter says my flip-flopping is because I am a Libra, the astrological sign whose good traits include being “diplomatic and urbane,” and my favorite, “romantic and charming,” but whose not-so-good traits start with being “indecisive and changeable.” On my gravestone I want inscribed: “On the other hand, maybe I should have lived.”

– Barbara Walters, Audition: A Memoir

13.1, Done.

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As I waited for the gun to signal that the Country Music Half & Full Marathon had officially started, my aspirations of a sub-two-hour finish rapidly diminished to a hope that I would somehow finish.

Gone were the thoughts of a competitively paced race. Instead, as I stood very ill-prepared for 45-degree, windy, rainy weather in a t-shirt and shorts, I was aching for at the very least a trash bag to use as a poncho. Maybe even a hat? What about something as simple as my long-sleeve mock-zip that I wrongly had checked with my gear? (“I’ll get too hot!” I had thought.)

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Out of all of the cold weather that I have endured; nothing was quite like the cold matched with rain that brought a whole new light to the saying that I felt ‘chilled to the bone.’ Nothing was dry. In fact, my shorts were feeling quite heavy and there were puddles in my shoes. Not to mention, I was pretty sure from the sympathetic gestures and looks from fellow runners nearby that I must have been heavily wearing my look of misery.

“Just start already! Maybe if I’m running, I’ll warm up.”

That is if I didn’t cramp up so bad that I fall into a fetal position and get trampled.

That was also a legitimate worry.

As my corral finally made it to the starting line I was excited for us to be released; not out of adrenaline or anticipation–there was none of that. Instead I was just glad to be moving. Glad to be one second closer to being done and maybe out of the bad weather.

I had known fairly quickly it was a terrible idea to keep my music and earphones with me; but that was only confirmed short strides into the course. Wet ears do not mix with ear buds; nor does loud rain mix with music volumes. I couldn’t hear anything.

So less than a mile into the race I was left contemplating throwing my headphones off the side of the course; only to settle with stuffing them in my bra instead.

“Well that may be an unfortunate chafing factor,” I thought.

And there I am. Running. Still soaked through in my tee and shorts. Now also carrying an iPhone that I’m not even listening to.

While some people were brave enough to ditch their outer layers, trash bags and ponchos; a mile didn’t warm me up.

On the other hand, I was so cold that I was looking at the items on the wet ground contemplating how gross or warm it would be to recycle them. I decided on gross since they mostly just looked wet and laughed at myself.

There were churches with groups cheering and bars with patrons staring. There were so many people and I couldn’t help but be grateful for the people who somehow sucked up the bad weather and were there cheering for others when they didn’t even have to be there.

I missed the one-mile sign and before I knew it I was off of the roads I remembered driving and walking the day before; and then I was on unknown roads already passing mile 2’s marker. Partly because I was distracted texting myself some Nashville photos on mile 2 (I was obviously concerned about what was going to happen to the ol’ phone in the rain).

Even though the first two miles seemed to be over in a blink I knew I was going slow. There were a lot of people passing me (‘what in the world people, it’s raining — how can you race?’) and I could tell from my watch that I was going at about a 10-minute mile stagger. But I was two miles in. And still cold. It hurt when my feet hit the ground. With every muscle stiff from shuddering in the cold, I thought something might eventually shatter.

While I had worried about the hills going into the race, I smiled when I saw the first one ahead.

This was going to get my blood pumping. Warmth!

Mile three was a welcome scene of hills and exiting downtown Nashville for neighborhoods. The next three miles were a wonderful welcome of:

– warming up,

– getting used to running in the rain,

– realizing I was overly comfortable with my pace,

– finding that I wasn’t having any of the cramping I had worried about,

– being distracted by the question “do I have to pee or is it just the rain?”

– smiling at the people cheering on the sidelines,

– abandoning the effort to avoid puddles,

– embracing the hills and thought that I had prepared well enough,

– and genuinely finding some way to enjoy myself.

Who would have figured that those rolling Tennessee hills might be just what saved my run.

There were cheerleaders and family members, locals and business owners. Maybe it was the emotion of what I was doing, maybe I’m nearing that time of the month, or maybe I was just fragile from being in the cold all morning—but countless times I was almost moved to tears at the amount of support that existed in spectators who were sitting in the cold rain and encouraging us one by one.

“It’s not raining at the top of the hill!” one shouted.

Another yelled “Anyone can run in good weather; it takes a real runner to be out in this rain!”

One supporter’s sign read “Run if you can, Walk if you must; Whatever you do finish for Boston.”

And I had to choke back a few tears.

Who knew that running 13.1 miles would be as much of an emotional journey as a physical one?

Man, I wished that those affected in Boston could see the number of signs on the sidelines, t-shirts on the runners, body markings and wristbands that showed “Boston Strong.” It was an incredible sight.

By the time I got to mile six I was feeling strong in a personal sense, too. Not only was the halfway mark looming, I was fairly shocked at how fast the time was going. No music really, many of the bands must have been scared away by the weather. A lot of quiet besides the padding of sneakers in puddles and mixed chatter between runners. And still not a second did I think “THIS IS DRAGGING.”

Every bend brought a new neighborhood or poster. Every passing runner had some entertaining shirt or expression.

Around mile six is when a guy who had ferociously passed me on mile one seemed to sputter out and I somehow passed him again when he was sucking air. I couldn’t help but feel a little vain that I was pacing myself better than he was.

My stride felt natural and I rarely found myself looking at my watch other than to check my pace at mile-markers.

There were friendly runners talking about that last hill or how they remembered the next neighborhood from last year’s race. There were runners joking about how no one would even notice if they peed themselves and there were runners who talked about stealing a snack along the way. There were runners who looked visibly tired but kept trucking along and there were runners who seemed to like mixing sprinting with walking.

It was an eclectic crew and I was somehow surprised to find the amount of conversation that happened along the way.

Running a half-marathon was far different from 5Ks or 10Ks where everyones pace is set on speed. Instead this race seemed to be about finishing and lasting, and sometimes that required some conversation and moral support from fellow runners along the way.

After I crested the mile seven marker in a neighborhood that felt strangely like Asheville, I knew I was set to go. I was halfway there and it was safe to pick up my speed a little bit. Some runners balked at the free beer from local restaurants; but I was afraid of it.

If i could just make it to mile 8 I was going to take advantage of the Gatorade which was luckily my favorite; but unluckily I think spilled on myself as much as I was able to drink.

The only drawback was that I could tell I was off-pace to break two hours. But, just maybe, if I stepped it up I could trim it down as close as possible.

Eight miles had always been the magic cross-over. I don’t know what was special about it except that maybe that was the most comfortable long run that I had finished so far.

Eight miles came easy but it was also at mile 8 that I began to feel things. Picking up my legs was a little harder.

The sign “Does your butt feel like bowling balls?” didn’t mean much when I saw it the first time at mile 2; but at mile 8 it started to ring a bell. My calves were feeling a little tighter. It was like my left leg was remembering that it had a shin splint and my feet weren’t just swimming my shoes anymore–there was definite sloshing.

If only I could get to mile 9 then I would only have four miles left and that was a short running day. That should be in the bag.

A few bands and again multiple pockets of spectators later I crested the 9-mile marker and started to kick up my speed. After mile 9 I didn’t feel like there was much looking back. You could tell that we were winding back out of the suburbs towards downtown and the tenth mile which landed us back in the city again put me on familiar roads that I had wandered with Nathaniel the day before.

The hills didn’t make too much of a difference and even though I couldn’t feel my toes or really my hands at that point, I was still feeling strong. My breathing was picking up; but it was steady. My heart was pumping; but it was keeping me warm.

The only hard part?

People walking.

At one point I about had to hurdle a girl who decided to bend over in front of me to stretch at the last second.

People walking meant you had to weave. That meant that sometimes people would get huffy if you cut them off (understandably). And it also meant misery if you had to get around them on a sidewalk that meant pushing off and leaping onto a raised surface. That’s when I could really sense I was going to hit some fatigue. Luckily as mile 10 blended into mile 11 there was a GU stop. Never had it before; but one of the French Vanilla packets later I was pretty confident that it would give me what i needed to push through the final two miles. For each of those walkers though I wanted to look back and yell “Come on! We’re almost there!” Maybe I should have. But I was too shy.

Passing the 12-mile marker was the biggest adrenaline kicker. ONE MILE. As I sped up, the man next to me warned that three-quarters of the finish were uphill. I didn’t hear him. I just kept going. Just maybe I could hit 2 hours on the dot. Maybe. But I would have to be fast. Every corner I hoped I would have a glimpse of the finish—but nothing.

Until finally there was the marathon course running alongside ours again. And in the distance I could see the finish fixture covering the route.

The rain was still pouring as hard as when we started; but somehow deep inside I had enough left in me to sprint out the finish.

And when I looked at my watch it read 02:00:13. I had made it in two hours.

(Only to see on the actual recorded time that I hit 01:59:57. Talk about beating 2 hours by a hair.)

As I crossed the finish line I was so overwhelmed with “damn, I finished” and “holy crap, I got cold again really fast” and “oh my gosh, I did it” and “good grief, I’m emotional” that I about burst into tears. Walking through and picking up my medal, chugging a bottle of water, grabbing a Gatorade, inhaling a banana, snatching a Powerbar and snapping a photo later I was completely overcome with cold. Shaking. Barely could pick up my feet. So much pain. And the car was so far away.

I was lucky to not run the race alone. It was far nicer to find a familiar face at the end who had shared the similar challenges of the day than end the race by yourself like I had done in Charleston. I’m not sure many other bonding experiences you can share with a person other than pushing your body to its complete limit subjecting it to miserably cold, wet weather for six hours and also running your heart out for a good part of that. And finishing pretty strong, I might add.

A day and two aching legs later; it’s still hard to shake my thoughts as I ran my race and I still find myself dreaming about the 13.1 miles start to finish. I’m still taking ibuprofen and I’m still drinking a Nalgene of water every two hours. I’m still stumbling up and down stairs and I’m definitely still finding spots of chafing from wet clothes and  knots from cramped muscles.

But.

All that said. I’m somehow, shockingly, sad that I can’t run today.

What?

I know.

So, surprise surprise, I’m pretty sure that 26? Yeah, 26 is going to include running a full marathon. Maybe 25 will see another half. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t tempted.

I can’t say exactly when or why I started running; but if you’re going to be addicted to something I can’t think of a better (albeit time-consuming) drug.

So, check that off. Another 25 by 25 bites the dust.

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Day 1 without cable: “Budgets are really cramping my ability to keep up with the news.”

I finally sucked it up and took my cable box back to Time Warner Cable yesterday.

In an effort to really look at where my money is going and figure out how to better manage my finances, anything that’s not used to full-capacity is in the risk-to-cut column when it comes to bills.

Pay $108 a month for cable service that I probably only use a few days a week? Not really worth it. Especially when many of my self-critiquing comments are spent on how I wish I didn’t watch as much TV as I do.

I figured I could sacrifice my DVR, my high-definition picture, my TV guide button and the hundreds of channels that I didn’t use anyway to instead opt for a digital converter box. Cut to the meat and potatoes of TV if I even need it, and also save myself a lot of money in the long run.

Afterall, most of the shows I obsess enough about to watch live time — I can find them on the internet the next day.

So, today was day one of waking up and not turning on the news as I got ready.

Instead when I got to the office I sat down with my coffee and newspaper, and the glaring headline that the two Boston bombing suspects had finally been named and the public were being sought after for help.

Another 30 minutes later and a co-worker exclaimed, “The Boston car chase was insane; I can’t believe this.”

To which I said, “I know — they named the suspects!”

So. Far. Behind.

So, while it’s great that I don’t have TV. Already, day one, I see how maybe this is going to change my up-to-date knowledge.

Perhaps I should revisit my on-and-off again relationship with Twitter.

But all that said, I keep telling myself that next month when I have an extra $108 to slide into savings this will all be worth it. Now to go find a digital receiver box so that I can at least get basic news.

(Oye, I just added it up. . . $1,296 a year for television! Decision gratitude, right there.)

Hey, second quarter 2013–what you got?

The first three months of 2013 flashed by in both fullness and quickness.

There were concerts, travels, late nights with friends and long days with work. There were goodbyes to some routines and there was an adjustment for healthier habits. The first three months of this year very clearly lived up to the jump start I was hoping 2013 would have.

Back in December I forecast that 2013 would be full of:

– Happy changes.

– Beautiful friendships (new and old). 

– Fun celebrations.

– Promises followed through.

– Adventurous travels.

– Getting out of the comfort zone.

– Being invested.

– Healthy growing up.

– Lots of love.

And, oh man, I was just scratching the surface.

But now, I have the next three months stretching ahead and it’s less defined. In the most immediate I’m pretty much beside myself with anticipation over a long weekend in Nashville for the County Music Half Marathon. Beside myself. Can’t wait. All I think about.

Nashville will wrap up April; but then there’s still May and June with a pretty wide open calendar.

I know that I’ll see my little brother graduate high school (big stuff); and I’ll start a summer of country music with Brooke and Tim McGraw. I’ll want to find some adventure for Memorial Day weekend and I’m desperate to go to a Braves game soon with the family.

In an effort to work better on my self budgeting I’m contemplating picking up a side part-time job–just a few hours here and there. My savings account has taken a bit (to put it lightly) of a hit from moving downtown. I just want to pick it back up. But an idea I’m toying with.

I still have a lot of 25 by 25s left to accomplish. So I’ll be writing a lot of handwritten letters. I’m reading more books (hello, Catch-22 — I need your plot line to pick up or I’m switching to some Agatha Christie).

I’m still hungry. 2013 has been full-steam and I anticipate no slow downs; there are a LOT of things happening in my life right now and, man, I’m excited to see how things have transpired by July.

Ending on a fun note; I just kind of want an excuse to be in a relationship to give someone this card because it’s almost as awkward as I am (maybe that’s the “vulnerable” 25 by 25, ha ha):

Half Birthday; But a Lot of 25s Left to Do.

Number 8, take a trip with brother, is officially done. This past weekend the two of us went to Charleston and also tackled number 5 to break out my should-have-been-used-by-now tent. 25 by 25s getting checked off all just in time for the half-way mark today; my half birthday (not something I celebrate, PS).

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In the things that were my favorite of the three days, not to be missed are:

– An abundance of Chacos weather,

– Campfires,

– Road trips with bad food,

– Sleeping bag conversations,

– Wandering downtown Charleston and Fort Sumter/Moultrie,

– Running one of the most fun races I have ever been a part of.

The Cooper River Bridge run was incredible. 40,000 people is astounding. And running in the midst of that many people? Overwhelming. But the adrenaline seriously carried me through at least half of the race. Then I just purely enjoyed the back half. My pace was actually a little slower than I felt capable of but because of the people and I had never raced that far I kind of cruised a bit. Still finished in under 53 minutes; so I was quite happy.

Overall, this weekend was awesome. Now I’m just sad that it’s over. I guess now I can shift focus to Nashville. Cue butterflies.

Six months to go and 14 to-dos remain, some scheduled, some ongoing and some that I need to make a move on. Need to start making some more plans for books, education, acting, shooting, publishing and traveling – ha.

What Remains:

  1. Learn to play guitar. In progress.
  2. Get a stamp in my way-too-empty passport. Canada in January…but no stamp, so not 100 percent done.
  3. Write a book proposal.
  4. Run a half marathon. April 27, 2013
  5. Volunteer time somewhere that really counts. Find a non-profit to dedicate passion.
  6. Re-immerse in the arts: read more, listen to bands I’ve never heard of. Ongoing.
  7. Continue my education. Enroll in a class or make a point to find non-traditional ways to keep challenging myself and growing.
  8. When you see family members are calling, answer it. When you see long-distance friends are calling your phone, answer it. When you don’t want to call, don’t underestimate the power of sending the unexpected letter. Ongoing.
  9. Be outrageously spontaneous at least once. Want to watch a sunrise on the coast? Go. Want to see that band that only plays on weeknights at a hole-in-the-wall in New York? Make it happen.
  10. Try for other acting experience.
  11. Learn how to handle a firearm. Okay, and maybe shoot one too.
  12. Be published in a news forum that I haven’t been published in before.
  13. Be vulnerable. It’s OK to tell people how I feel every so often. In fact, I should tell some people every single day.
  14. See a play on Broadway.